What makes me angry when I think about it is how I wasn't taken seriously as a person during my youth because of my love of music which was turned into an insult by some of my relatives for some reason. I have always been a cool guy from my adolescents through my teenage years up to now as an old fart but I thought I had to please everybody being a dedicated Beatles fan & rock fan in general that it drove me crazy on the inside. I thought I had to keep up with what was happening during the 80's so damn closely almost as a rock fan/music fan when I was in my early 20's that it was driving me crazy which I laught at now since I wasn't part of the MTV generation. I had lots & lots & lots of Beatles this, that & the other regarding books, albums & videos that it was getting out of hand in more ways than one along with the Stones, Zeppelin & Van Halen at the time spending my money like it was going out of style when I never had to in the first place. What I keep as my permanent memories is satisfying now because it wasn't as bad as I thought it was even though it felt like more which took me over 20 years to get out of but it's history now while I will have the last laugh as a lyricist when it comes to my relatives who turned my love of music into an insult for some reason.