Welcome to your first heartbreak. Pain is subjective, but I'm sure most people have had their heart's torn out and tap danced on, and it ain't fun, but you have to have your grieving period for awhile, and punch your way through it. One lesson learned, is you can never, EVER, put one person ahead of your family and friends, because when all is said and done, they are the ones who truly love and care for you, and will be there if a relationship tanks. Passion is a powerful thing, and it can make you do things your head tells you not to, but one thing I've learned over the years, is that passion can f*** you up. You need to keep your wits about you. Plus the reality is that you and she will probably go back and forth for awhile. Breakups usually go about 3 times before it's really over. If you are smart, keep your pride even though you feel like sh*t and find someone who appreciates you and march forward. Amen.
