John wasn't ready for a kid when Cynthia got pregnant. How I look at it is...Cynthia getting pregnant was an accident, and John knew exactly what the right
step was after that accident. But he sort of resented that, in a way, because the other three Beatles were single and mingling and he was a hugely famous rock star and wanted to be able to be free to all the extreme excesses- but then when he did he would feel guilty to Cynthia and Julian. And I think that was sort of the resentment. I don't think he was evil for feeling resentment, I think its a human quality. He was selfish and wasn't ready to commit at that point in his life.
But he always loved his son, though he may not have been a proper father for years. He was able to reexamine his priorities at a perfect time. I mean, he was still young and Julian and him could talk and there was Sean, whom he was there for since his birth. But John's death screwed all that up, and that's where Julian has his resentment- I think more towards the "situation" than to his father, although he'll have us believe that. I think Julian should
just let go and try to cheer up and realize his life isn't THAT bad- he lives in Spain, he has a nice and beautiful girl who he loves and spends a lot of time with, and he basically does nothing all day. I mean, life can be tougher. But still, part of me feels he is entitled to his resentment and I have nothing against him having it- though it'd be better if he was happier.
Oh, and Mendips..."Season of Glass" is a beautiful record. I have the one with the bonus "Walking on Thin Ice" on there, with John talking at the very end. So its pretty much all the Yoko that I need.
But occasionally she has some good tracks on other albums. What's your fave song on SOG?